sian....

i know i should be studying.... but when i start i'm immediately stuck.. all thanks to the lousy lecturer who expects so much but din teach anything.. can't blame him coz i guess he hasn;t been teaching for a really long time.. but i really waste my time and even possibly my money also.. if i fail i need to pay 300++ to retake.. it is not that i dun wan to study... is i dunno wat to study!!!!

he gave us 10 qns to do for individual assignment.. i was thinking.. he so good... haha.. but when we hand in our assignment.. almost all is not up to his expectation.. i super angry lor.. if he teach us something we din meet his expectation maybe we are really no good. but he din even go through 20% of the lecture notes!!!!!!!

i appreciated that he shared his life experiences with us but then our main objective here is to learn about contract management!!!!!! but then in the end i realise i din learn anything.... and still need to go for exams... i dun think i can make it la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my 3 mths and 300++ bucks fly away liao la!!!!!

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Sick...

Haiz... was sick since Sat when i got home.. already not feeling very well... Sun is ok but then this morning i woke up with a terrible sore throat... obviouslyi have not drunk enough water... mu lips are red and peeling... super sian.. at 1st was so excited to go work cos wan to share wif may they all on the gowns i have chosen... and tell them about the weird guy i saw wif the weird baby pink flowery back pack... drinking lots of honey now... dear dear night shift some more... hais....

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Trying wedding gowns fo PS

i went JB to try my wedding gowns for my PS today.. wah... the jam at the JB customs is terrible. i was suck on the bus STANDING for 1 hr.. was really tired when i get there.. but Printemps staff was really nice.. i picked a red gown which i really liked.. 2 white one and a light brown one.. the girl tt helped me was really nice and sweet.. i tried many gowns but she is still very nice and sweet to help me look for more gowns to suit me.. i'm realli sad i cannot fit into the short dress coz it is so nice.. and i feel a bit insecure bout the outcome of my pics coz i still very fat and when i try the gowns they still dun fit well... T.T

but then i have a really nice hubby who is there is cheer me up and help me feel secure.. i am so glad i have such a wonderful hubby.. next week is the PS.. hope everything will be good and smooth.. and no jam at customs... one of the staff told my hubby tt the PS session will be from 1030 to around 7-8pm... so long meh!!!!!!

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Updates

I should be writing this in the last few days.... My apology has been accepted and I am super super glad. Well hyper happy I would say. It's good that things are back to normal or I would say even better than previous!

The most important is the lesson that I have learnt. I understand that how childish and immature I am. And it is good that I have God around me to remind me and good friends around to guide me and support me. This way at least things can be solved before it gets worse. I still have a lot more things to grow and learn.

From this I also understand some thing I heard while watching Neon Genesis Evengelion a few yrs ago. The Hedgehog's dilemma. Humans are like hedgehogs. They wan to get close to each other but in the event of getting close to each other they get hurt even though both have no intention of hurting each other.

People come in many forms thus it is not easy to understand each other. Due to this, friction happens. People who understand each other and are willing to give in to each other will be the ones that remind best friends forever. Good friends are not easy to find. Once found they will remain by your side forever, no matter ups or downs. This is provided that you are true to them in the 1st place.

There are so many people in this world and it is not by chance that you meet people to be your friends, colleague, classmates, family etc. Thus it would be good to take this opportunity to find the goodness in that person. I have experience this though not through a very good way. I have found goodness and kindness in people I nv though I would before. And I am glad I did as it makes me really happy. Humans are not perfect so now I know there will be always some goodness in a person if you choose to look beyond what is on the surface. Once u see it, it will be the best feeling ever.

Something else to update. I took part in the Glow magazine contest and I have won this.

It costs 38 bucks each lor. Have always wanted to buy but can’t bring myself to. Haha. Now I got it for free. Thank You My Lord for this blessing. I will be collecting it when I go for my "torture" facial since the collection is at Bugis. I have used the sample and I love it. It really clears the dead skin on my face really gently and after using my skin feels super smooth and clean. Actually the price is ok la. Coz the bottle is rather big. But then poor gal like me, always spend too much on my payday, need such blessings from God. Hehe. tt’s all for today. Will blog again when I feel like it.

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Reason for post

I struggled a bit about posting this... on one hand my pride is on the line... on the other hand is my faith.. if i do not admit that i did something wrong i will be ashamed to tell ppl i am a christian.. it takes no courage to hurt ppl but it takes huge courage to admit one's wrong and apologise. thus this post...

Firstly, I have to admit tt tt post was indeed referring to the 3 ppl that we all know. After some thinking I did indeed feel kinda bad for wat I did. I was really mean and maybe I did indeed somehow hurt ppl the way we are all being hurt which is NOT a good thing to do.

I am doing this NOT coz I was afraid or I hate the comments I was hearing. Those comment I understand are words that are of ppl who are angry and seriously it does not bother me at all as there are much worse comments I haven gotten from them. Moreover, those comments have only become jokes we all laugh about. I am writing this post becoz someone reminded me that 2 wrongs does not make one right. Wat I am doing only shows tt I am equally evil. And that person is God himself. I know this does not sound like me to be writing such things but it is true.

Though the post did made many of us feel happy initially but when I was happily shopping today I went into a Christian book shop and while browsing a book, suddenly the words “2 wrongs does not make 1 right” in the book became obvious to me. It stuck me really hard and I have realized that wat I was doing is really wrong. After toking to my close friend on MSN, I have decided to write this.

There are many many reasons that I came up with that post. Who does not wan to work in a happy environment??? And the main reason I did it was many of us are feeling very unhappy about the way we are treated. When you ppl are having fun and making noise you are enjoying yourselves but when we are happily laughing we laughing we are commented as being a bunch of idiots. When you are late from lunch we nv make much noise and sometimes even try to cover up for you but when we are late we are given many terrible comments. Wat I was doing I tot was just standing up for my friends which they felt that way too. But my approach was really wrong.

Many non Christians may not understand me doing this now and may even think I am stupid for giving in. To me this is not about giving in but more like doing the right thing. Wat I did was not right! I am indeed guilty of it!

I hereby need to apologize to the 3 persons. i know wat is done cannot be undone. the post will be deleted. Sometimes maybe at your point of view I or we may have irritated you in ways we do not intend to. Whether apology is accept or not is up to you. Or you may think I am stupid or an idiot to this. I am doing this because I feel wat I did was wrong. I am ready for any terrible comments you are about to give if this apology is not accepted. These comments will not affect me from doing the right thing.

Friends, I hope to seek your understanding for me doing this.

And most importantly, thanks Tommy for guiding me to the right path. You really are a great friend to have.

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